Friday, November 25, 2005
Well, I didn't make the usual entry wishing everyone a happy thanksgiving because I forgot I had this thing! Sad but true. Due to the generousity of a friend, my daughter and I had a wonderful Thanksgiving with turkey and fixings. To top it all off, a generousity of a stranger, has helped me to produce a good Christmas for my daughter. This year, I have much to be thankful for after all. Lose some friends, gain some friends. Realize what is right and what is wrong with certain friendships. Friends do because they want to, not because they have to. Friends care no matter what, without forgetting whats important to you. As I meet more new people I realize that those I thought were my friends, weren't. I've not heard from them. I did not expect to. Aw well, what goes around comes around, tenfold. I believe that now. Always.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Okay, I know I did a good thing. Why is it I am sitting here moping today? Five years down the tubes and its only been two weeks but I still miss the dam man! Okay.. I won't do this. Not worth it. Nope, not gonna. I am better, I deserve better, I need better. Where the hell is the one that's suppose to take his place? sighs...
Saturday, November 05, 2005
As I lay here at night I think of things I wished I had done, said, or needed to feel and my only regrets are that I did not open myself up to the passion I know is inside of me. I keep it hidden as if I may not be able to control it once it is let loose. Sometimes though, I am just too tired. Of life, by work, taking care of the kid, to even feel as if I am alive and have needs. Regrets...
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
The promise I made to myself at the beginning of this year has finally born fruit. Call it stupidity or sheerly stubborn, whichever the case may be, but I finally ended a five year online friendship. A person can be told only so many lies, broken promises, and endure silences up to a point and I've reached mine. I don't care if this is just "online", you still do not treat people badly. I'm not going to belabor all the bad things that happened. I was a fault for tolerating it for so long. I am just going to breathe a sigh of relief that it's over. Done with. Move on. NEXT!