Saturday, September 30, 2006

Not much going on lately...

Life is sort of serene. That's almost scary. Babysitter seems to be working out. Job is slowing down a tad but not as much as I wish it to. Weather has been great. I did finally call Planned Parenthood to find out how much it cost to see if you are in menapause. As always, it's more than I have right now so that is on hold. After three months of not having the unblessed curse I think I could get used to this. Of course, if something else is causing it, I'm not sure I really want to know. Kidlet has been having attitudes lately. I think she is the one PMS'ing. Asserting her independence is a good thing but not when she does it verbally and is rude. We are working on that part. That's about it for my life. Daughter should get back from the Bahamas tomorrow. She didn't take poor old Mom!! WAhhhhhhh

Saturday, September 23, 2006

I got some news today!!!

I'm going to be a Grandma again in May!! My daughter and Grandson came to town and surprised me with a visit today. He's getting sooo big. Will be a year old next month already..sighs. Do I feel older now or what?

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Mom is a wuss...

I broke down. I caved in. I bought the dang radio/CD player. It was either that or she was trying to resort to using my computer as a radio. That wasn't going to happen. No way. No how. Not ever. I did try to set her down once again and state, "If the CD's mess up. Push the stop button and come get MOM!". I don't think it will work. Want to take bets on how long this radio will last? : )

This shouldn't be allowed to happen..

It shouldn't happen but it does. I go to sleep and four to five hours later I wake up. Toss and turn. Say to heck with it and get up. Of course if I took something to help me sleep, then I might get another four hours. I don't want to become dependent on something to help me sleep. I'm still in pain these days from my back and neck. Dang stress! New sitter seems to be working out okay. We will see how she handles Vicky on her bad days. She's been arguing about getting a new CD player these past few days. Thinks I have money growing on trees so I can just take her to the store and get one. Ha! It may only be 20.00 but that 20.00 has to pay house bills first before she can be happy with a new one. Besides the "old new" one only lasted two weeks!!! Mom is trying to stand firm on this one. I don't think she's learning anything though. Except how to make her Mother more nuts....

Saturday, September 16, 2006

It's been a stress filled week...

Did you know that stress can cause headaches, backaches, and shoulder pain (the kind that makes knots there) when you don't externalize all your worries? I've been fretting too much about finding a sitter and, cross your fingers, I hope I found a good one this time. She will start there Monday. This family has worked with special needs children before so her behaviour or abilities (lack thereof) will not come as a surprise to them. I so wish I could just afford to stay home with her when she is out of school but alas, Mom must earn enough for us to get by in life. Oops, brb, she wants a hug. Boy that kid is strong. She doesn't realize that a hug does not mean to strangle MOM. Ah, she needs more than a hug... later...

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Sometimes I have bad thoughts...sighs

I was watching a movie this evening called, "The Other Daughter". It is about a mentally challenged girl who makes a stand to move into her own apartment, have a boyfriend, and eventually marry him. The movie makes it seem too easy, I think, or maybe things are just too hard here sometimes. I think to myself what I would do if I didn't have to raise my daughter. Would I live the quiet life I do now? or would I be a party girl out hanging at the bars every night trying to fill that void? It's hard raising her by myself. All the worries, trials, and events we go through. Some days she really gets on my nerves but it's not her fault and I try not to let it show so much. She gets fixated on things and when she does, she constantly repeats it until something else will grab her attention and detract from it. Until then, I am constantly answering the same questions over and over again. What would it be like to sleep in till 11am on weekends if she weren't around? What would it be like to not have to pick up after someone 12 out of 24 hrs a day? What would it be like to not have to worry about finding adequate care so I can work a full time job to support us? What would it be like? A boring, uneventful, and unmeaningless life. At least this way, I have meaning to my life. Things are never truly boring. I can sleep later when I am dead. I think I rather hear her laughter, see her dance, and worry when she walks into the walls because she can't see them. Yep, I'm a mother all right.

Never lean over your kid while washing her hair...

I was rinsing my daughter's hair last night and she went to come up and boy, did she ever! The back of her head whacked me so hard on my chin that my teeth slammed together. Fortunately, I didn't bite my tongue but I now have a bruise on the bottom of my chin and my jaw has been aching since. She keeps telling me she is sorry and I know it was an accident but it still hurts!!! She felt so bad that Mom bought her the new movie, Brother Bear 2, at Walmart today. I couldn't really afford it but I hate to tell her no because we don't have much to begin with. I can do without a few things for another week if it makes her happy. She's glued to the TV right now watching it. I think I'll go watch it with her...later !!!

Thursday, September 07, 2006

I hate life's curve balls...

I picked up my daughter today from sitter only to be told tomorrow is the last day they will watch her. ONE DAY NOTICE! Isn't that just freaking great??? Apparently her child is having surgery and I am sorry about that but you can't tell me she didn't know before TODAY! She knows I rely on a sitter to work. Some people have no class at all. Sighs.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Steve Irwin is dead...

Long live all the dangerous creatures of the world! Oh okay, I'm not happy he died. That man drove me crazy when I would come across his show. I would have to quickly change the channel as to not scream at him, "You idiot! They are going to kill you!". Sure, he taught everyone valuable lessons about wild critters, but he was a certifiied nut in doing it. I guess though he died doing what he loved best. Being around a dangerous creature. Stingrays may look all lanquid and serene in the ocean as they glide through with ease but they still are "wild creatures" and he took a chance. This time it killed him. I mourn for his family and his children who now will have no father and have to watch his reruns only to think, "My Dad was really an idiot". A cute idiot though but still an idiot. I guess someone had to do his job in life. Good thing it was him, not I. God Bless his family in the coming days ahead...even years. I know how hard it is to lose a father to your kid(s). Believe me, I know. :(

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Today's Quote...

To err is human; to refrain from laughing, humane.-Lane Olinghouse

This one made me laugh. So very very true.

Friday, September 01, 2006

The results are in!!!

I looked for, sent, faxed, couldn't find, UPS'd, or found on rolls a total of 967 records for August. I thought I would never pass my January count of 950 ever again but I did!!! No wonder I feel tired. Thankfully it's a three day weekend and I can relax, sort of. I'm on call all weekend. Kidlet has a sinus infection so we got meds for that today. I hated to take her because she missed their big Pep Rally at school but she really needs to get that nose thing cleared up. Her cough is finally gone though except for little bit due to drainage. I hate when she's sick. She is irritable and hard to please. Wait! That sounds like me when I'm sick... think she might really be mine???? : )