Tuesday, September 25, 2007

I've not been very good at writing on here lately. I just don't really have anything to say. I've been depressed (sort of) but that's par for the course I think (still blaming hormones) and have been trying not to WHINE as I usually do on here. Work is still work. Slow as molasses on some days and semi-busy on others. Still waiting till October to see if we are even staying open. I think that's what most of us are doing. Trying to get what little bit of employment we can till they make a decision. October 10th is the year of being a new company and when some contracts run out for a few of the bigwigs there. I'll keep you posted... : )

Thursday, September 20, 2007

I wish at times I could quit caring about people who don't care about me... sighs.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Still here...still counting down days at work till we find out if we stay open or not. Still stressing and the usual stuff... nothing new to report. : )

Saturday, September 08, 2007


Finding two books you want and can't get them yet...maddening!!!

Friday, September 07, 2007

I was thinking today..

Yea, I know. I really shouldn't do that, right?
There are a few people out there that find themselves in a point of their life where they see no options. No way out. No end of the rainbow. During these times it's hard to dig yourself out of the black bottomless hole you find yourself in. Some drink. Some use drugs. Some just try to end it all. For good. I reached an epiphany during a time in my life when all went black. I swore no matter how my life went from then on, it would never end in that black hole again. So far, I've managed to hang on to edge and just scream once in a while. Anyway..before I started rambling, I was thinking about a friend of mine. I haven't told him this. I may not. The reason I like him so much is because he knows the quiet desperation when you reach that point in your life. He KNOWS. He also, like me, dug himself out and has managed to hang on. A connection if you will. Kindred souls both trying to either pretend life is always fabulous or convincing themselves it really is. I just know he makes me laugh and I need that a lot sometimes. A whole lot. I hope he stays my friend for many years to come. He just doesn't know what that laughter means to me. He really doesn't.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Do you ever???

Wake up some mornings and wonder which way your life will go today? Wonder if this is the direction it's suppose to be going or is there some surprise down the road awaiting you? Life seems mundane at times. Get up, go to work, come home, and repeat the process all over again each and every day. In the meantime you try to fill in any empty places with times of joy and laughter. If you succeed, you are left with a warm glow that fills your heart and enables you to go back to your routine...one day at a time.