Sunday, June 26, 2016
I've been talking to someone online lately as it's been feeling like deja vu all over again. I've done this before... Waiting on a man to come online to talk to me, waiting for a man to call me, waiting... I don't have his number even though he had mine. First sign a man is involved with someone else, they don't share their phone number. They only call when in their car. They only talk to you while they are at work. Last night was enough. Game over. No more chances. I don't need the bullshit. Don't want the bullshit. Carry on to some other fool because this woman is NOT so desperate that she needs YOU in her life. Nope, not happening. See ya....NOT!
Saturday, June 18, 2016
It's going to be one of those "bad days." I try to keep busy to keep my mind from thinking too much but I don't always succeed. Sometimes, just sometimes, I wish my life had gone in other directions. I think about the people I've met, lost, or may meet and wonder is it all worth it to put myself out there and let the wall down. I had let it down for someone and they hurt me. So back up it goes! If you get past it, consider yourself a part of my life I rarely share, me. If you don't, you probably won't really miss it anyway. No more over-sharing or letting loose. Back to closed up little old me. It's safer that way.
People come and go in your life without any explanation? I had an online friend that just, for some reason, decided to quit talking to me. I don't know what I did, or why they did, or what happened but they just stopped. I'm not going to beg them for an answer though because if they feel they can't talk to me anymore, it's on them, not me. I don't beg anyone to be a part of their life. I know I'm a good person and people should want to be a part of my life. You can't make people want, like, or love you. Whatever they have going on in their life, I wish them the best. I truly do for they are a great person, even if they had trouble seeing it for themselves. It just makes me sad I won't be talking to them anymore...sighs.
Tuesday, June 07, 2016
When you meet an articulate, smart, and nice looking man online only to find out that he's no different than any other man you've met online so far. Twenty minutes into a conversation and he wants to talk about sex. I let it slide the first time but when he offers to "gift" me to talk sex with him which would make me a "whore" of sorts then I just cut it off. It's so sad because I could've have liked him for himself and he didn't have to "buy" affection or tell his net worth to make himself likable. I hope in the future he learns that the way to a woman's heart isn't about money, sex, or what he can give her but what he can give of himself and how he makes her feel when she is talking to him or with him. True happiness is found in the little things, not the big things, or making a woman feel whorish. Sad..so sad....