It's gonna be my birthday!!!

It's my birthday tomorrow and for some reason I am sure being depressed today. I keep thinking is this all there is??? Will the rest of my life consists of worrying about sitters, work, health, and Vicky without anything for me? No love life, no peace of mind, no rest? I know this mood will pass but for now I seem to be wallowing in it and keep wishing all my worries will go away...permanently. Oh well, Happy Early Birthday to me...

So much for babysitters...

Well, the new sitter welshed out on me. After watching her on Friday and yesterday, she decided she couldn't devote the time for Vicky on top of watching the other kids she does. No notice, just a phone call. Another girl, Erin, called yesterday evening and wants to try her hand at watching her. I think it's going to get harder and harder as she gets older trying to find someone for her. I may end up having to move to Waco just to find more available sitters. I can't do that until she finishes school. This is so hard as a single parent. I have to work to pay bills and take care of her. The stress of all of it is eating me up. Isn't life grand? NOT...

Update...

I'm so behind on posting lately. This Business Law class has kept me busy and my next class, Finance for Business, will also, I am sure. I've been having a sitter crisis lately. My wonderful sitter of two years had to move out of the area and I didn't have anyone to cover for her. Fortunately, after much nail biting and no sleeping, I found a new sitter. She'll start with her on Friday and it's such a relief. I pray they will get along. Vicky is a big flirt and this new sitter has BOYS!!

Caylee is doing great. Gaining weight and still purty! Grandma hopes to see her on Sunday! Wish I had more going on in my life but I think my plate is pretty full.