One of those days that I'm mad at that world, myself, life, and whatever else comes across my path. I've been up and down since 2:30 because of my kid so I now have a headache and I'm bitchy as hell. I know this is supposed to be thankful month but let me try to remember why I am thankful and why I am not.
Not thankful:
For a kid who doesn't sleep so I don't sleep
For being so broke I can't even go visit my best friend at Thanksgiving
For all the broken promises that have ever been made to me
For life in general
Thankful:
For a kid who loves me
For having best friends
For finding out that the broken promises are probably for the best
For life in general
Right now that's all I got. I'm tired of being a Mommy ALL the time. I want to be ME sometimes whatever that is anymore. On days like today I wish I just had someone to hug me and say it's going to be all right. To have just one day where I don't wake up trying to figure out which bill I can put off to do something else I want to do, to have a kid that sleeps through the night, and to just have someone here in my corner for the days I want to scream.
I am most thankful for one of my best friends lest he read this and think I am not. I know you have my back and are in my corner but you are there and I am here and sometimes its a different kind of want.... ya know?
