Do you know what's frustrating?

I've held the babies ONE time, on the day they were born. I've not seen them since nor held them. It's frustrating, hurtful, and makes me jealous that friends and HIS family are more important and they get to see them and bond and I don't. Caylee has no clue who "Grandma" is and but she sure knows her "Nona." Don't get me wrong, I don't dislike the other grandparents. Far from it, they are the sweetest people you could ever meet or know but I dislike the way Lauren has supplanted them into her life as her "Mom and Dad" and I feel as if I am one of those relatives that you admit you have but you rather just shove in the corner and forget about them. I was supposed to go see the twins on this past Sunday and when I texted Lauren to see if she was awake (at 11:41 am), I get a text back saying, "I am now." How would you take that? I just told her "Sorry, I won't bother you." I haven't texted her since and I'm not sure I will. I'm tired of begging to see MY grandkids and her. The kids will be grown before they ever realize they have another Grandma. Excuse me, I'm going to go cry again now. Oh, I have pictures of them right after they were born and that's all I have. They are kind of icky, so don't look if you don't like newborn pics.

Ava Jean 6.2 lbs and 18.5 inches


Charis Renee 5.9 lbs and 18 inches


A recent pic of Caylee at 20 months