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Sunday, January 23, 2011
Some days...
Some days I think I just can't go on...
My patience wears thin for taking care of the kidlet especially when she decides to take a cup of milk and sling it around the room because it looks cool to do so. My memory isn't what it used to be. I find myself forgetting stupid stuff like leaving a brisket thawing out all night long instead of putting it back in the fridge (fortunately I put it out late enough that it was still cool). I had a job interview and I sabotaged myself because I hate change. I have an almost degree (5 months to go) and I don't want to do a thing with it. Am I a bad parent because I try to imagine my life without the kidlet? I'm almost 49 years old and can see myself in this same position 20 or more years down the road. Lonely, lost, forgetful, and fat. Let's discuss the elephant in the room and discuss my weight gain of 50+ lbs over the past two years. I think today I am just going to cry...maybe, just maybe, it will help...or not.
My patience wears thin for taking care of the kidlet especially when she decides to take a cup of milk and sling it around the room because it looks cool to do so. My memory isn't what it used to be. I find myself forgetting stupid stuff like leaving a brisket thawing out all night long instead of putting it back in the fridge (fortunately I put it out late enough that it was still cool). I had a job interview and I sabotaged myself because I hate change. I have an almost degree (5 months to go) and I don't want to do a thing with it. Am I a bad parent because I try to imagine my life without the kidlet? I'm almost 49 years old and can see myself in this same position 20 or more years down the road. Lonely, lost, forgetful, and fat. Let's discuss the elephant in the room and discuss my weight gain of 50+ lbs over the past two years. I think today I am just going to cry...maybe, just maybe, it will help...or not.
Friday, January 21, 2011
My life....
I keep wondering when I will get my life back. Between school, work, and kidlet I don't have time to write! I have THREE more classes until I earn my Bachelor's degree...woohooo!. I am considering obtaining an Associate degree concentrating on medical records (coding and billing). I figure if I keep on taking courses, I'll die before I have to pay off my school loans...haha. Kidlet is doing good. She still has her 'tude at times but overall things are running smoothly with her and daycare. Babies, babies, babies...I get to see them a bit more now that Lauren's hormones are getting normal (haha). Posting the latest pictures of them for the world to see...as soon as I move them from my phone to computer. Happy Friday!
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