Sad but happy...

I'm a tad sad. My Grandson, Ryan, is a year old today. I can't make his party but what I am sad about is that I didn't even get an invite. True, I forfeit any rights in their lives due to her not being my daughter except by blood, but it would've been nice to at least get the invite. I'm truly happy that her and I finally crossed paths in life (I gave her up for adoption when I was 16) and what little bit she does allow me in is great but....okay, I want to whine about it. She does talk to her sister a bit more and for that I am grateful also. Her sister has known about her since she was little and always wanted to meet her. I guess I could just say something to her. Be open about how I've been feeling. Not today though..today is his day. I'll just call and wish him Happy Birthday. Least I can do.

I'm restless...

I'm so restless lately. I don't know if it's the weather finally changing and becoming bearable or if it's only me. Work has slowed down (for now) and that isn't too bad although I don't handle having nothing to do too well. Pickup has been causing a few problems but hopefully mechanic has that fixed. Got to buy groceries today so we don't starve for the next few weeks. Kidlet seems happy lately or at least, she's not asserting herself in non-positive ways. Maybe I'm just lonely... for something.....I don't know what.

I've been busy..with stuff.

I've been busy updating my resume lately. I figure it couldn't hurt. I had one once in the format of a web site but I can't find the disks I stored it on. I've been looking over my education and my work history and I can't say I've had any regrets. Oh okay, one maybe. Instead of working on an Accounting and General Business (Assoc's) degrees, I wish I had went with my other love, Database Management. I've managed to accumulate over 100 hrs of education and am still not doing what I love best. Messing with computers. The classes I need are only offered in the daytime at our local community college and I don't want to take out another school loan to survive while continuing that part of my degree. I've managed to pay off what little bit of a loan I did have and I'm not too much in debt at the moment and want to keep it that way. I could do it via Internet, I suppose, but I'm the type of person that needs to see and hear something for it to sink in. I know my strengths and weaknesses and doing it via Internet would not work for me. So, I am just updating my resume just in case things don't work out with this new company. Can't hurt, right? I miss school though. I love learning things. Just too hard to go to school, work, and raise this kid on my own. Sighs.

It's official...

I now work for another company! Personally I can't tell a bit of difference. I'm still doing the same amount of work and then some everyday. I looked for a little close to 60 records today. Does the new company affect my work...not one dang bit!!! : )

News today and more...

I had some news this morning at work that will affect me ...or not. Seems our company has been trying to talk another company into buying them. This company does the same thing we do only on a larger scale. Supposedly, all will be keeping their jobs but as with all things..once the paperwork is signed, they can do as they wish with us. I'm the only one that does what I do at work so I am hoping my job will still be of some value to them. A key good point though about all this is the new company offers HEALTH INSURANCE! It will be a dream job if I can get that and keep the job also. I love the fact that it's daytime work, off weekends, and I am off most of my daughter's school holidays. What more could a Mother ask for??? Besides another raise?

What is going on in this world??

People shooting kids????? I just read about the Amish school shooting and it's sooo sad to even hear of someone shooting a child. No where is safe anymore. Which is better? Home-schooling or dropping your child off at school where they have a chance to be shot by some disgruntled student or adult who just can't seem to get a grip on life. I know life can be hard, lord don't I know it, but I can't see what is in these people where another's life has no value to them at all. Especially a child's life. It's just sooo sad....