Babies, babies, babies...

It's been two weeks since I saw them born and I finally got to go visit and see them. I only held Ava this time because Charis was feeding but they are sooo sweet!

Ava




Charis

Do you know what's frustrating?

I've held the babies ONE time, on the day they were born. I've not seen them since nor held them. It's frustrating, hurtful, and makes me jealous that friends and HIS family are more important and they get to see them and bond and I don't. Caylee has no clue who "Grandma" is and but she sure knows her "Nona." Don't get me wrong, I don't dislike the other grandparents. Far from it, they are the sweetest people you could ever meet or know but I dislike the way Lauren has supplanted them into her life as her "Mom and Dad" and I feel as if I am one of those relatives that you admit you have but you rather just shove in the corner and forget about them. I was supposed to go see the twins on this past Sunday and when I texted Lauren to see if she was awake (at 11:41 am), I get a text back saying, "I am now." How would you take that? I just told her "Sorry, I won't bother you." I haven't texted her since and I'm not sure I will. I'm tired of begging to see MY grandkids and her. The kids will be grown before they ever realize they have another Grandma. Excuse me, I'm going to go cry again now. Oh, I have pictures of them right after they were born and that's all I have. They are kind of icky, so don't look if you don't like newborn pics.

Ava Jean 6.2 lbs and 18.5 inches


Charis Renee 5.9 lbs and 18 inches


A recent pic of Caylee at 20 months

Grandma again!

Just found out the twins will be born by C-section tomorrow! Yahoo!


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It's official....

I hate my finance class!!!!


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Alive....

I'm still alive. Starting a finance class that will take as much studying as my stat classes did which I made A's in!!! Have a paper to write starting tomorrow. How lucky is that??? NOT!!


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I need advice...

A certain daughter is behaving strangely toward me these days. If I try to make an appointment (yes, appointment) to see my Grandbaby, it's like pulling teeth. Either she has an excuse as to why she won't be home or she does not reply to my texts or phone calls. I can't think of a thing I've done to make her mad at me and with the twins coming soon, I'm afraid I won't be able to see them either. Any thoughts about this? I've tried talking to her and all she says is she's been busy. I can't believe she doesn't see my texts because her phone is an extension of her hand but she ignores them. I'm going to see her today and am not sure if I can't hold my tongue about all of this. Give me strength because I don't want to upset her with only a few months for her to deliver. Advice anyone?

Stress...

Things I stress about:

How to pay off my college loans.
Making my paycheck stretch enough to buy food.
Learning how to save for my new ROTH.
Praying my knee doesn't give out completely.
Dying with Vicky alone in the house with me.
Lauren having trouble with delivery of the twins.
Going blind.
Surviving.

Babies....

I just found out Lauren is expecting TWINS!!!


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One more week...

One more week of RES342 (statistics) and I'll be done with this part! It's been a hard and at times fairly easy class but mostly due to the instructor. The tutorial was the hardest part (for only a ten point grade) but that ten points can make the difference between an A or a B depending on other class grades. I take my final next Saturday. Wish me luck!!!

Kids....

I'm not sure what is going on with Lauren. I've been trying to go see Caylee for three weeks now and her momma won't make time for me to come by. On top of that, Lauren is preggers again! Now I'll have to hunt down two if I want to see them.


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Grandma again!

Lauren is preggers again! Due November 29th. Caylee's going to have a playmate.


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Pictures!

Kidlet graduated last night!!

I'll post pics soon! She had such fun at the graduation...

Okay, so I've been suspiciously absent of late...

Between school, work, and kidlet I just don't have time to come on here and post but I know I should. My life is going on, right? I start a STATISTICS course next Tuesday and believe me, I am not looking forward to it! I've been studying off and on for the past two weeks trying to sort of make sense of some of it. I think its the formulas that will confuse me more than anything. Any thing that looks suspiciously like MATH, I hate automatically. Oh, on a side note, I bought a new car (AGAIN). I traded my 2008 in for a 2010 with an extended warranty this time. Zero percent financing so let's hope I can make the 30.00 more a month payments. I managed to finally get a raise at work too. A whole 32 cents..haha. They do it off percentages of something (I forget what my boss told me). He did get me retroactive (I think that's the word) for the past 90 days since I should have had the raise in December. I'm managing to get some overtime still so that's a good thing too. Now if I can make enough to pay bills and buy FOOD! : )

Today is my birthday!

I'm so excited to be a year older...NOT!


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Sometimes strange things happen...

The strangest thing happened to me yesterday. I had a knock on my door and it was my OLD boyfriend from many years past at the door with a box of candy. He wanted to wish me Happy Valentine's Day and visit for a bit. Very strange. This is a man I will never go back to for a variety of reasons. I'm still confused as to why he did this since he never did anything like that when we were together. Very very weird. Anyway,

Happy Valentine's Day tomorrow!!

Pictures!

I got in Vicky's senior pic and her grad pic today. I wish her teeth were in better shape but other than that, I think they turned out terrific! Also got another picture of Caylee (8 x 10) woohoo! I'll try to scan it and post it another day. Enjoy!

Time is flying by...

It's hard to believe its the New Year and I haven't posted since November. December was actually pretty busy. Between class and working 30 hrs of OT in a two week period and then 14 hrs of OT, I mainly worked and slept. Kidlet went to Oklahoma for two weeks during that time so it was nice to be able to get in the extra time at work. Classes start back up on Tuesday for us both and I think I'll be making an A- in this class I am currently. I really don't care for the topic and am doing all I can just to make a good grade. Astronomy is not my strong suit. We have one last team paper to submit and a final then I get a two week break before Macroeconomics begins. Caylee is almost 10 months old already! Unbelievable! I am already anticipating this year flying by as well. I hope everyone had a great Christmas and a Happy New Year to all!