Do you think she's a tad sore???

Dental Surgery..

Kidlet survived her dental surgery. She had to have three wisdom teeth extracted (two were impacted) plus FOUR other teeth. Poor kid. I feel so badly that she inherited the same type of teeth I had growing up. I don't know what we will do when she gets older. She may not have any teeth left and require implants. Unfortunately, her dental care will run out when she is 21. Doesn't leave much time to do anything, does it? Sighs. Gotta go, she needs a hug.

I can't be what you want...

I can't be what you want.
I can't be all things to you.
In being all things to you, I lose sight of me.

I can't be what you want.
I can't give up my independence.
In losing my independence, I lose my sense of self.

I can't be what you want.
I can't be the love of your life.
I don't feel love. I don't want to care. I can't.

Don't ask me to be what you want.
Don't ask me to be what you need.
I can't.

I'm sooo exhausted...

I spent from 7am this morning till 4pm scanning FIVE huge folders of files to a hospital. Over 1600 pages. You'd think sitting at a desk scanning wouldn't be so exhausting but it is. My eyeballs hurt and it gave me a headache. Laying in bed resting sounds pretty darn good right now.

On the job thing; I decided to stick it out where I am for right now and see what happens in OCT. Word is everyone will get a raise then and I will be up for a 1.00 more an hour. If that happens, I think I can live with it. Everyone is jealous because no matter what happens to the company, as long as we have records there, I have a job. Besides the Canon side of the company, I have the most secure job. I guess I can hang with it for a bit longer right? I am still employed and that's a good thing. It was nice though, knowing someone else out there thought I was worth hiring too.

Trying to get things together for Vicky's dental surgery. Have to call the hospital tomorrow afternoon to find out what time she goes in on Monday. I do know she is the first one in line but not sure what exact time will be. I'll keep you posted.

I think I'm going to take a hot shower, lay in bed, and just veggie out...Peace!

Job...

I didn't take the job...it was for a glorified mail clerk. Staying with present job for now..will write more later...

Happenings...

Kidlet is all set up for dental surgery on the 27th. She will miss the first day of school and possibly the second day as well.

I'm sort of all set for job interview tomorrow. I think. Found out today though, that they plan on giving raises in October where I am now and also, if they shut most everything down, my job is still secure as long as we have records at the facility. Changing jobs is such a hard choice sometimes. So many pros and cons for staying or going. Part of me wants to stay because I do like my job. A lot. I'll go see what the woman has to say tomorrow and make my decision then. Sighs. I dislike change.

Job interview..

I have a job interview schedule for Wed at 8:15 am. Wish me luck!!!

Waiting game is over..

He did call... amazing. : )

Waiting game...

I am in the midst of a waiting game, I think. I told the new guy I've been chatting with on the phone that I didn't want to discuss the "S" word in every conversation we had. He has yet to call me since then. Better to find out now than to invest my emotions, eh?

Should I write or should I not???

I sometimes give the link out to someone whom I hope they read this blog and learn a bit more about who I am and what I am like in life. I always have misgivings though. When someone reads it and if I write about them, I feel guilty. Then I feel guilty for feeling guilty. This is my forum. My way to express myself and sound out things so I can cope with them in my head. I'm not changing how I am and if someone reads about themself in here, well, sorry but I feel I have reason to write about you. That being said, here goes...

I've met a man online. He seems like a really nice guy. We talk quite a bit on the phone. I wonder though what we do have in common. His choice of reading material, music, diet, and lifestyle is so much different than my own. How do you hope to get along when you are that different? I know sometimes opposites attract but I have a few misgivings. I guess time will tell especially if we ever meet in person, right? Hard to believe I am letting anyone get close to me. Haven't done that in a long time.

I think I will just let things go for now and try not to overthink it all. Who knows? I sure don't...

Oh yea, did I mention??

The job placement agency called me today at 4:59 wanting to know if I could go for an interview TOMORROW morning. First off, I hate short notice stuff. I have to talk my boss into letting me off work to go. Second, the dentist office FINALLY called yesterday and had to schedule the kidlet's dental surgery on the FIRST day of school! If we didn't do it then, it would be several months before she'd go in again. I had to tell the placement agencies that I couldn't do it until after the 1st of Sept. She takes precedent over finding a new job at the moment. Anyway, we will see how it goes, right?

I dislike grocery shopping!!!

Nothing I dislike more than anything is going grocery shopping. Everything is going up in price except my paycheck. I brought home six of those little plastic bags this evening for a grand total of $86.07! I don't even feel like I really bought anything. I did buy some hamburger, tenderize round steaks, and some bacon. Kidlet has ICE CREAM once again to make her happy. Where's the nearest book store? I don't mind shopping there!!!

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Wanna see some cuties???

Top picture is Ryan he is almost 2 now!! Caleb is almost 3 months now!! : ) Cuties, eh?

Happenings..

I was suppose to call my niece this evening. I didn't.

I've been busy updating my resume and looking for local jobs online. I am taking the day off on Wednesday to go to Waco and search for a new job. My job is becoming too slow, too unsure about it's future, and I'm tired of everything in the world rising in price except my wage. I hate to leave this job because I really do like it. I pray I find one I like just as well.

Kidlet is doing good. Still staying close to Mommy and wanting me to come pick her up immediately after I get off work. As if I wouldn't..haha. School starts Aug. 27th and that is a relief to me. Reduced sitter time and money. Of course, sitter might not be too happy about it. : )

I'll keep things posted about my job hunt. I hate interviewing!!

Am I destined to lose my mind?

Sometimes I feel as if there is a time bomb that can go off in my head at any minute. My Mother was bipolar-maniac depressive, my niece is schizophrenic, and now, my little sister is losing what's left of her mind. How do you combat odds like that? I think they want me to go down to Caldwell and talk sense into my sister. She sits in my Mother's old house with no electricity all day long. If her so-called husband comes to get her, she heads right back down there. I'm sure she is talking to my dead Mother. I don't want the drama. I don't need the drama. Sighs.

I don't like surprises...

I really don't like them. If someone has a surprise for me, just do it. Don't tell me about it. I hate that. "Oh, I have a surprise for you". As if I don't know that usually means I'm either going to hate what they are going to do or it's really bad news. You ever get that feeling? Surprises are suppose to be just that, surprises! You do them out of the blue with no warning so that the person is totally surprised. You don't tell them ahead of time so they can wonder and worry about what is going to happen now. You just don't. Oh by the way, "I have a surprise for you"...