I hate this...

I hate being depressed. Sucks the life right out of you. I just can't stop crying tonight for some reason. It's pity party time, I guess. I had better dreams for my life than this...I wanted to be married, have my own house, a job if I wanted to work or option to stay home. I never imagined I'd be single at (almost) 54 with no end in sight. I miss being with someone. I miss someone caring about what is going on in my life. Ah, shit...going to stop now. Gotta shake this off and fast...!!!