Saturday, January 15, 2005

My self quote for the week...

It is rewarding to find someone you like, but it is essential to like yourself. It is quickening to recognize that someone is a good and decent human being, but it is indispensable to view yourself as acceptable. It is a delight to discover people who are worthy of respect and admiration and love, but it is vital to believe yourself deserving of these things. - Jo Coudert

I admit it. Freely. I have a self-esteem problem. I've been that way since I was a little girl. My favorite thing to do when I was a child was to crawl inside a closet with a flashlight and a book. I would hide for hours. Sometimes, when my mother would call out for me, I would not answer. Trying to pretend I was invisible. I spent my childhood riding my bike, fishing, or disappearing for hours to be alone. I would spend school dances sitting alone or standing by the wall being the very definition of a "wall flower". I can count the number of childhood friends I had on one hand because I let no one get close enough to me. Because I did not like myself so how could others like me? Trying to like ones self is so much harder than liking another. You know all your faults, you live with yourself everyday, see what you are, and are more critical of self than others can be of you. My goal is to work on my self-esteem. "I am woman, hear me roar!"

1 comment:

Romani Heart said...

I'm there with you girlfriend :)