The stupidity of some people never ceases to amaze me...

I was in a chat room today and there was a man in there that lives not too far from me. By far, I mean about 90 miles. Texas standards, that's next door. Anyway, I was talking to a few men in there that I am comfortable with flirting and chatting to and he starts getting this attitude toward me. I've never spoken more than a few words to him in the chat room and today was the first day I've said more than five to him. He was making an ass of himself really. I was talking to one guy and he started ragging him about how he was treating me. We were joking around. Same as we always do. My friend left and another came in. I started talking to him. Again, he started making references about my relationship with this new friend. I admit he was getting on my nerves. He then proceeded to email me and demand I open my IMs so he could talk to me. Now, no way in hell was I going to do battle in an IM with a guy I don't even know. No need for it. Fortunately I was already in an IM that I wanted to be in with a friend discussing music. I wrote him back and told him this. Told him, politely, another time perhaps. He then proceeded to make an ass of himself in the room making comments about my email. I just ignored him. He finally left. Is that crazy or what? I'm a likeable person but that was just too weird for me. He will never be on my buddy list. He's a nut!!! : )

I don't get it...

Why would a person read one email then delete the other? I sent too many emails? Strange. People wonder why I close myself off and don't communicate with others. That is why. I don't need the rejection. I don't want the rejection. Fuggetaboutit.

Tagged...

I've been tagged... first time for me too!! Thanks GreenJeans..
I don't know 7 people either...hahaha

Here's the rules:Each player starts with 7 random facts about themselves on their own Blog. People who are tagged need to blog 7 facts about themselves and post the rules as well. At the end of your blog list 7 people you are tagging. Let them know that they are tagged by leaving them a comment. So, here goes............

1. I am a dark chocolate fanatic. I always keep Dark Chocolate Kisses on hand!

2. I want to be married. I miss being married.

3. I want to win the lottery only I tend to forget to buy the tickets to do so.

4. I want to be a librarian so I can read at any time.

5. I wish to fit back into my size 8 jeans.

6. I wish I could write as well as some people do on their blogs.

7. I wish I knew more people to tag.

2DollarProductions...I am tagging you. I don't know who else to do. : )
SweetTea ...if you read this, you are elected also. Have fun!

I noticed...

It's been five days since I last posted something so figured I would write.

Things that are going on in my life:

1.) My boss goes to his new job on Monday. He doesn't actually start the new job till Tuesday so it's all up in the air as to how he will like it and if he will really quit at our workplace. (I'll keep you posted)

2.) I'm still waiting for the replacement AC Compressor to come in. I thought it would be here by today so that I could take truck to shop on Tuesday. Cross your fingers it comes in on Monday.

3.) I really hate summer. Why? Because I have to pay a sitter twice as much to watch the kidlet and that takes a chunk out of my paycheck. We don't need food, nope, not us.

4.) I don't like the fact that if my boss quits, I'll lose my vacation I was planning on having while kidlet was in Oklahoma. Not fair.

5.) I'm moody, can't you tell? : )

It's me!

I thought I would post a picture of me. I don't know how to do it under the profile thing so this is it. Don't laugh!! ; )

Happenings...

Let's see, what is first?

Kidlet is going to Oklahoma on June 30th to July 14th. Yay me! I'll be broke but I'll get a break for a bit.

I have my parts for my AC stuff on pickup. Waiting on a friend to send me money for the labor so I'll have AC this summer! It's horribly hot and humid out there already, I don't think I would make it this summer without AC in truck too.

I'm going to hide my credit cards and just pay cash for everything for the rest of the year. I really hate living paycheck to paycheck sometimes.

Job keeps laying people off and I think we may not be open by the end of the year. If we are, I would be very surprised. There are a few jobs in this town but not very many. Especially not jobs where I can work the hours I do now. Sighs.

Legs have been really hurting me lately.

The less I eat, the more I gain.

I am still alive! That's a good thing, right? : )

I copied this MeMe from another blogger friend. Hope he doesn't mind.

1. What time did you get up this morning? 5:50 am.

2. Diamonds or pearls? I don't wear any jewerly and if I do, it is pierced earrings. I prefer diamonds over pearls though.

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? "Shrek III"

4. What is your favorite TV show? "Law and Order" (any of them)

5. What do you usually have for breakfast? Weekdays - Toast at 6:30 am, Cereal at 10:00 am at work. Weekend - Toast and Ice Tea. Lots of Ice Tea.

6. What is your middle name? I hate this question. I don't like my middle name at all. It's a variation of the name Lucille only my Mother in all her wisdom named me Cile.

7.What food do you dislike? Veggies. Ha. Ha.

8. Favorite thing to cook? BBQ

9. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Don't really have one. I have a mix of songs I made myself that I listen to a lot. Two favorite songs are Dido-White Flag and Sarah Mclachlan-In the arms of an Angel.

10.What kind of car do you drive? Mazda B2200 pickup.

11. Favorite sandwich? Subs--preferably with turkey, lettuce, tomato, and pickles.

12. What characteristic do you despise? Lack of compassion.

13. Favorite item of clothing? We are suppose to wear clothes? : )

14. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? Ireland or Wales.

15. What color is your bathroom? Cream

16. Favorite brand of clothing? Jeans..any that fit and make my ass look good.

17. Where would you retire to? Up on a mountain far away from people.

18. What was your most recent memorable birthday? It's been so long since I had a good one, I don't know.

19. Favorite sport to watch? Football

20. Farthest place you are sending this? No idea.

21. Who do you least expect to send this back to you? No idea.

22. Person you expect to get this back from first? No clue.

24. When is your birthday? April 26th, 1962.

25. Are you a morning person or a night person? Morning --I love watching the sun come up. Once it goes down, I'm sleepy.

26. What is your shoe size? 9

27. Pets? No, does a kid count? : )

28. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with us? Nothing new in my life.

29. What did you want to be when you were little? A social worker.

30. How are you today? It's Monday - it's not suppose to be good.

31. What is your favorite candy? Dark chocolate Kisses.

32. What is your favorite flower? Roses of any color.

33. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? Thursday, June 7th. I am taking the day off work.

34. What church do you attend? None currently.

33. What is your full name? Need to know basis..if you don't know me, you don't need to know.

34. What are you listening to right now? TV--kidlet is watching something, I don't know what.

36. Do you wish on stars? Yes

37. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Yellow--seems like a happy color.

38. How is the weather right now? Pretty darn hot.

39. Last person you spoke to on the phone? A friend from Florida.

40. Do you like the person who sent this to you? No one sent it, I snitched it.

41. Favorite soft drink? Pepsi

42. Favorite restaurant? LaFeista and Red Lobster.

43. Hair color? Brown

44. Sibling? Two sisters but do I have to claim one of them?

45. Favorite month of the year? April

46. What was your favorite toy as a child? My fishing poles and books.

47. Summer or winter? Summer

48. Hugs or kisses? Kisses

49. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate

50. Do you want your friends to email you back? Not applicable.

51. What is under your bed? Nothing. I hate clutter under a bed.

52. Who is the friend you have had the longest? Woman I've known for about 19 yrs.

53. What did you do last night? Watched TV and tried not to think of my hurting back.

54. Favorite smell? Cinnamon and chocolate--not necessarily in that order.

55. What are you afraid of? Huge furry spiders. I hate them.

56. Plain, buttered, or salted Popcorn? Buttered with the good stuff and little salt.

57. How many keys on your key ring? Five

58. How many years at your current job? 4 and a half.

59. Favorite day of the week? Friday

60. How many towns have you lived in? Umm, too many to count

61. Do you make friends easily? No.

62. How many people will you be sending this to? I won't, they'll have to find it here.

It's a sad sad day..

When you have to throw out your scale! It seems no matter how much I watch what I eat, how much I walk (as much as my knees will allow), I can't seem to LOSE a dang pound. I just got on the scale this evening, yes..a bad time to weigh oneself, and I discovered it read 190 lbs!!! I am disgusted with myself for weighing that much. I am 5'7" so at least it carries sort of well but it is beginning to bulge too much in my gut and thighs. I need a personal trainer, oodles of exercise machines, and liposuction? haha right. Oh yea, my back is so so better. I'm being careful about what I lift or don't lift at work right now. Thanks for the well wishes on that one!! : )

Take care of your back...

You never know when it might hurt!! I did something to my back today at work. I don't remember picking up anything out of the ordinary but it's been steadily hurting all day. I even left work at 4pm due to it. I've been laying on an ice pack and that relieves it for a bit but I hope it goes away by Monday. I hate getting old!!!

Strange thoughts and other things...

I've been having really strange thoughts lately. Thinking about my husband and Dad. Both are deceased. I don't know why now. Maybe because I'm getting lonely again? Thinking about what if's and should have been's. I miss my Dad so much sometimes. He would've loved this World Wide Web and the many things you can discover online. When he was alive, he owned a Commodore 64! He thought he was really moving up in the world when he went to an IBM. He never did get online. The availability to do so through AOL didn't really get going for the American public until after he died. At least not the unlimited hours plan anyway. There are so many things I wish I could share with him but I know I can't. I miss him.

As for my husband, I wish I knew where our life together would've taken us. We were married for only two years before he died. Just enough time to have a daughter but not enough time to really know what being married felt like for us both. He was ten years older than I and more settled in his life. I was his first marriage. I was 18 and he was 28. Amazing, isn't it? I think about him every time I have a birthday, knowing he would've been 55 to my 45 this year. I sometimes miss him and what we could've had together so much. Sighs.

I wish I knew what my future held for me. I want to be married again. I don't want to spend the rest of my years just being a Mother. I would like to be a lover, a friend, and a companion to someone. Who knows what God has in store for me? I sure don't. I truly don't.

Strangest dream...

I had the strangest dream last night. I dreamt that my husband, who died, was somehow alive and wanting to move in with us. My kids kept switching from grown to toddlers every five minutes in the dream. I also dreamt that someone was after one of my kids who was suppose to be a lost royalty or wizard (I had a boy in the dream that was mine). Strange stuff, eh? I haven't really thought of my husband much in the past few years. Not that I'd ever forget him but just don't think about it unless Lauren says something about him. Of course, she came by yesterday, so that may have triggered that one. As for kids becoming toddlers...no, I do not want any more babies. I couldn't have any anyway. I want my kids (oldest two) to have them for me so I don't have to raise them. : ) Too many hidden meanings in dreams. Way too many.

Okay, so it's a three day weekend...

Big Deal! By Monday I'll be pulling my hair out from being cooped up in the house due to this blasted RAIN! Don't even get me started on gas prices. Who can travel if they want to due to high gas prices? Maybe, just maybe, if it stops raining and sun comes out...we might go to the Zoo. Maybe. Humidity will kill us then. Yea, yea, I'm whining...

Shrek!!

A must see for good laughs. I don't care if it's lame jokes or lame humor the way they do it just makes you laugh outloud. I especially like the part where the Ladies-in-waiting get TOUGH! I won't go into details, you need to just go see it!!! ; )

Revival..Praise Jesus!

Vicky and I went to a Pentacostal Revival today. My sitter invited us and I figured, why not? It wasn't too bad. Vicky, of course, wanted to go home 15 minutes after we got there. I talked her into staying for at least three hours. When they finally started the "preaching" and praying part, I think she was a tad bit scared. Several of the men started speaking in "tongues" and some of the kids were so wound up they were crying and praising Jesus. Not that there is anything wrong with that,maybe it's me (it's always me), but the "tongues" part made me uncomfortable. All in all though, it wasn't a bad day.

Tomorrow we are going to see Shrek III. Lauren has volunteered to go with us before she has to head to work. I'm looking forward to it. : )

President Bush and the noise level..

You can always tell when Mr. Bush is in town. We get fly by after fly by of JETS! I think they make huge circles over his ranch every few minutes and the roar of their engines can be extremenly loud. Fortunately, they do this during the day. At night, I think they go up higher as to not disturb the sleepers. Sometimes. Price you pay for living 11 miles from his ranch. : )

Love...it is so hard to find...

An online friend I've known for several years has finally found THE ONE. At least he hopes it is. I hope it is for him too. He called me yesterday in a panic though. Wanting to know if he was being too pushy too soon. I told him, in all my great wisdom, YES! He tends to be a bit impatient at times but fortunately he thinks I know all so he does listen to me. He followed my advice and now he is on the right track with her. I hope I don't lose his friendship due to this relationship. I voiced my concerns yesterday but he swears we will always be friends. I would miss him if he wasn't there for me to call and whine to or to just reach out to know someone was there for me. Either way, if our paths seperate in this life, I'll know he's happy and content. I couldn't ask for more for him. Truly. Now...where is my ONE? Ha!

Life on an even keel...

I'm amazed that so far this month life is going smoothly. No babysitter crisis. Kidlet isn't PMS'ing everyday. I'm not hurting as much in my knees. Think I am jinxing myself? Ha!

Much debate...

I had much debate about posting the previous entry. Mainly because I shared this site with the man in question. Then I decided to do it anyway. I won't hold back my feelings and concerns nor my way of voicing them out by writing them here. I will be me. Always.

Maybe I'm just slow...

I've talked a few times to a man from CA and maybe it's just me but I can't figure out what he wants. He's articulate, intelligent, seems nice enough, but he keeps stressing the point that he likes to read to women. Call me cautious or something but I get the feeling he'll eventually ask to call and read to me. There is nothing wrong with that really but it starting to make me feel overly cautious and uncomfortable. There are so many strange men online and it's hard to weed out the nuts from the truly sincere. Why can't some men just have a nice conversation without it being a sexual prelude? Maybe I'm getting the wrong idea. I don't know. It just bothers me. I know I can be touchy about anything sexual. My being celibate is my choice. I have my own issues to deal with on that subject but if I'm feeling uncomfortable, I'm not staying in a situation that makes me that way. It's a shame really because finding someone who is truly intelligent and a joy to talk to online is becoming a rare thing indeed.

I know I'm not the most exciting person around. I work. I raise my daughter. I live my life. That's it. I don't seek out men online. In fact, I won't IM them. I do talk to a few on a regular basis but we've talk about everything but sex. It's an online friendship. They listen when I need to rant, I listen when they need to rant. They ask about my day, I ask about theirs. I never feel uncomfortable talking to them. That list is very small though because it is so hard to find men such as these. Single men whom want nothing from you but your time. Maybe it's just me, as I said. Maybe.

I don't think I really like any holiday...

I'm depressed. Why? I have no clue..but I am. Tomorrow may be better...